Trying to lose weight has been sticking it to me lately. Ever since I moved to Spokane, I've been stuck in the 135-140 range. It's truly been a good example of what it means to be disciplined. Let me explain.

Trying to maintain a regular body weight has been a frustrating experience. I find myself having to regulate my intake of calories and making sure that I eat healthy on regular basis. These principles are good for me in the long run, but if I ever indulge, then it costs me. For example, one weekend I decided to just let myself go and enjoy myself. I had a very unhealthy weekend of eating. At the end of it though, I had gained a good chunk of weight, one that took me three weeks to undo. It just boggles my mind. A couple of poor decisions can have a lasting impact on all the work I had done previously.

To be honest, it drives me nuts because it makes me feel like I am walking some type of tightrope, always having to do the right thing. Further driving my insanity is the fact that there are plenty of people I know who can eat whatever they want and retain their weight. They have no conception of what it means to work to be healthy.

Also, I'm finding it discouraging to try and keep going. There are weeks when I see that I weigh the same or even more after a week of healthy eating and exercise and it makes me want to quit. What's the point of it all if it doesn't work? It's then that I tell myself that if I stopped exercising, imagine how much bigger I would be. It is a bit discouraging.

So what have I done to keep myself going? I try and focus on the fact that being healthy is something that I've decided is important. For the sake of my longevity and maybe even for the future family I may have someday, I need to make sure I am doing everything I can to be healthy. How can I take care of the ones I love if I can't even take care of myself? So I'm going to keep trucking, even if I don't want to at all. I need to keep looking at the big picture: Over two years I've lost 75 pounds. The whole process is slow and I have to think that a year from now, I will have made significant progress.