Over the course of this break I've spent lots of time with families, most of which have not been my own. After spending time with a couple functional families, I think I am starting to appreciate the closeness of a family. As of now, I'm not that close with my parents, but I never really thought I was missing too much. But now seeing how other people interact with their parents and families, it makes me want to have a family like that someday. I want to have kids that love me and want to spend time with me, to tell me about their lives and what is going on. I want to be able to just be with my children and wife and have a good time with them. But even more, I am excited to have a family where Christ is the center.

I've noticed that it makes a huge difference, and I am excited to be a spiritual leader in my children's lives. All this talk of family is way off into the distant future, but it's nice to stop and dream every now and then. Until then, I guess I'll have to try and savor what relationship I have with my family and hope that one day I will be strong enough to have a healthy family of my own.